关心。

刚刚我看了堂姐的部落格，我哭了。
知道她在那里发生的事 情，点点滴滴。
考试，功课，朋友，感情和想家等等。
更你说吧。。我的感觉就像你的部落格所说的。
和你一样，考试很难，功课压力大，很多功课，有时都不懂怎么做，又没有朋友帮忙，没有很要好的朋友，感情生活就算了，我也超想家的，我的工作等等。
这一切都是压力，考验。我们都要去承担的。
说真的我是不害怕我考得很差，而是我怕我爸妈给我的期望都被我搞炸了。。
其实，说真的！我的压力也很大。就比如：

家人：真的，我在facebook说我很闷，说实在的。。我很闷因为这里我没家人陪我而不是有没有男朋友的 （别人都以为这样，我疯！）。。我喜欢和我的家人一起笑，一起吃，一起讲话。 来到这里，我觉得很空虚，没家人开玩笑，很闷，出去又很懒惰。。又不想一个人出街，因为我习惯和我的家人一起生活了。不能没有他们！有些人说去找找朋友出街，朋友又不能然我胡言乱语。

考试：去年考试。虽然我考过了。很高兴。 可是今年我发现课业增加了。要求很多。我的英文写作其实不是很好，可是幸好我的朋友都肯帮我看看我的文章。感谢他，又然我过关了。 还有，说真的，大学我可以应付过来，但是考雅思，得永久居民证，会让我爸妈很失望。很对不起他们。都是因为我的英文不好。 说真的，我也希望我可以留在这里啊。 可是又不想离开你们所以我选者去新加坡。 我妈有时会骂我说为什么考不过没多练英文，我觉得她骂得没错。可是，我学了又学还是一样啊。。当我跟她说我的雅思还是拿一样的分数，她没骂我，而且还说就一直去考。 我知道你这样做是为了我好，为了我的前途，将来，可是能怎样？
妈，说真的你给我的压力好大。可是我还是答应你，我会尽量！尽量！

工作：工作压力也大。早上还要很早起来。工作是不想让我爸出很多钱给我这样念书。我不想要让我爸还我的生活费和担心我。我是可以自力更生的。我最最怕的是你还的钱，我没好好珍惜。如果我考试fail了。我真的很对不起你们！！！ 我答应我妈不要花很多钱在没用的东西上 （衣服等的）实习压力也更大。。

给堂姐的话：
要坚强！不要因为一次的失败就放弃！
功课多多努力。 不会的问问朋友！考试不过，就换科。。念你喜欢念的。。家人永远都支持你的！我也是！或在给自己一个努力的机会。！
想家嘛，就打电话回家。。在忍耐多几年！ 忍忍忍！！！
要记得念书是人生的一部分也要经历的事情。毕业了，就没的好念了！
加油！
遇到困难哭了，然后把眼泪擦干，再往上冲！ 努力在努力！ 尽力就好！
一起加油！
明天会更好！

6 th december

I am not sure whether it's warm or cool today? It seems like never be cool since that day! I am under the HOT red SUN! I was back from my work and came back to have a shower and take a short nap because i havent been sleeping enough! Today was my 6thworking day and i gonna to have 2 days off which is tomorrow and wednesday then go back to work on the thursday then again off on friday! Well, i hate this thursday and hope i am going to have a good shift on that day! If not, i am going to kill myself... I am working with someone who work very slowwwwww and i can guess that i am going to do all the job that day! so it's better for me to have a really good rest on the wednesday and work for the thursday! I am going out with my friend tomorrow but i dont feel like going out because i have been out for 6 days for non stop already for working and i can hardly stay in my room..but if i am not going out, i will find myself boring and even became nuts at home! sigh! So, i decided to go out! but what is the next day? go out again? People! help me!
arhhh

Blog again!

I feel like blogging right now! I went to work just now and i had a good easy shift but i felt upset. It is because one of my old lady who is from GREEK has passed away this morning and i was shock! Personally, i like her because she is nice and friendly to us (all of the staff) and i talked to her sometimes when i am free and laugh with her! BUT today! GOD has took her away which is unfair to us! She has passed away because of liver dysfunction and this morning she as alright with the shower and dressed up well! but all in the sudden she has vomitted with blood! She was not well this morning and she just can't wait till the ambulance to came and pick her up to her hospital for treatment! OMG! I WAS soo upset with her! She is an independent lady and she told me that she was a tailor where all her nighties was made by her which i think they are really nice! and sometimes she wanted to call to her son or brother in melbourne and i took her to the front nurses station to have a phone call! Also, sometimes she wants to sit outside to have a fresh air instead of having the stuffy air in the nursing home! I took her out there and sitting with her. She was a cute residents and i love her name! It's bad that she can't celebrate Christmas with us! =(

ps: REST IN PEACE, Alingka! Thank you for being talking and chit-chatting with me all this while when i am free and Merry Christmas !

It's Sunday!

Hi, guys! I am back here in my blog again! Seriously, i have got nothing to write about today because my day is just started and it's only 11.30am! I just woke up because i have slept enough! The weather for today suppose to be 30degree but it seems like only 25 or 28 degree out there and i can feel it is cooler out there! Hope the weather not gonna change until i go back home k? just stay for 25 till 28 degree for this summer and i will be so much appreciate it! Oh well, yesterday my friend was asking me about the house stuff and ask me when do those guys move out and we need to know the exact time for us to move because those china people keep on asking us about when are we going to move actually! This is non of their business and i hate the feeling of people keep pushing us! BUT when we move we do move all the things especially the microwave that they are using right now and they didnt know that the microwave are actually belongs to us! and they have to buy after that!!! wootsss!!!They will soo much appreciate us for having our things and yet we do not complaint for them to use those household thingy!
ok..Let's me try to call those guys see whether they already move or not because we cant wait anymore! we have to go!!!
* GuyS, i know u can't understand what am i actually mean in this blog, so just ignore this as i tried to talk to myself here* teehee!

Pimple!

I just got back from work and sat down in front of my lappy. I starts to yawn after that! Why am i like that all this while? Is it because i am getting old and why am i get tired so easily nowadays? lolzzz. and somemore i am having my period at the moment which i am soo happy with because my pimples has gone once my period get started.. woots.. I hate pimple on my face. It is because it grows only one and not a small one BUT a really bursty BIG one. like a volcano with the white pus. Sometimes, if i dont touch it, i feel like something on my face! Sometimes, my hands were itchy too much then i will go and pick my pimple and the volcano has burst and bleeding! and it mark down on my face with a pale red spot which takes a very long time to cure it! The venue of the pimple are always at the same place e.g. is either on my chin (below my mouth) or on my cheek(next to my nose) what a stupid place it grows and makes me looks ugly..haha My pimple is my period's signal so, if u guys see my face come out with pimple then that's mean i am going to have my period very soon. and now my face looks soo nice and "slippery" hahah..as in chubby face(i have a big and wide face) with no spots on it! I feel relieve...pheww.. and that's all about my pimple !!

owh, today i met king! i never see him like almost 1.5 years and glad to met him again! he looks old and pale with beard all around? which he doesnt look like this before..haha..anyways, the girlfriend was shy and charming..hehe..hope he is doing well in everything!

Cold weather tonight and tomorrow gonna have a really nice warm weather! singlet again as sharonLEE's wish..haha

good night guys! i am going to sleep after finish my yummy yorgurt!

me again!

Unhappy!

i was so damn unhappy today!!! My life today makes me freaking bad!!!
I wouldn't appear to follow the nurse today!!! the China nurse! shit!
Bloody shit!
Today i follow her because she looks good to me by the appearance! but who knows... sigh!
Ok..today i took 2 patient by my own... and she gonna choose one patient with palstic surgery (the porn star) for me and lots of obs gonna be done on her because she has low Hb level and she needs blood transfusion!!! that's 3 units! Ok... she gonna follow and watch how am i going to take the blood pressure..ok..i accept it.. then what the fuck she ask me how are u going to test it the cuff of the blood pressure machine is tight on the patient's arm or not? I was like can i just ask the patient whether she feel tight or not? coz never had a nurse ask me such stupid question.!!! then she say just put 2 fingers underneath the cuff....ok (who can think of that) and somemore not to put the sats finger thingy on the same arm where the cuff is on?!!! then i was like explain to her...the other nurse not complaint of that...and different nurse doing different thing.. so who am i going to follow? what the FUCK!! and that patient has got a "sth like underwear" on..and she, the nurse on flow suppose to wash it down by herself....but she ask me to wash it? damn it....i was like how am i going to wash that? shit..!!!
next...about the bladder scan as well! she told me the way to how to do the bladder scan and i did try on the patient maybe the amount is inaccurate coz this is the first time i did that...i havent got use to it...that's new to me!!! how can i suppose to be so "perfectly""" like u? damn it!!! as well as the tympanic machine...she said i dont know how to use that? damn it.....it just the amchine not working soo suddenly.... and she did try on using the machine...still not working i was like well..not my fault...but she said that i dont know how to do it correctly and teach me in front of everyone! damn it!!! people out there!!!! i gonna shout! i know how to do it, k?
just leave me with the patient...that's enough!
i haven complain about her yet..and she start complaint about me! she...suppose to wear gown and gloves when attend a patient with MRSA! and she didn't...also..i ask her whether do i suppose to wear too..then she say no...u dont have to wear coz i am just watching...this one i accept..but...she has to wear it because she is the one who touching the patient..and she never wear it!!! what the fuck? why she never realise on her mistakes?
another one was!!! when in the lift... she said that i am not a very good nurse and not very satisfy with my work today!!! straight away!! i was smiling (but actually damn it!!!..fuck u) what to do..i am just a student.. ok...everything blame on me! for the sake that i am soo stupid till i ask her to write comment on me!!! how stupid am i?
she also said that i have to have a holistic care to the patient..what the fuck i did!!!! i am the one who put on the hot blanket on the patient....who lift the legs on the bed and who put the cream on..and she did what? NOTHING!!! ok..towards the end of the shift..she ask me what have i learnt today? i say ok..i learnt how to use the bladder scan and how to check whether the cannula is sitting well in the vein or not...and also watch her to put in the cannula in... damn it...then she ask what else? she actually aiming me to say about the blood pressure cuff..damn it...that was just a small thing..why remember till now? and also the tympanic machine ...
phewww!!!!
she did wrote a bad comment on me at last..i swear!!! and she did..anyways, i am not going to pass it to my clinical facilitator i did rip the paper off!!! but now the problem was i scare she photocopy it and show it to my clinical facilitator!!!!! i was sooo scare!!!!!
but i got sth to let my clinical facilitator know about her mistake!!!!!
also, i share my anger with my friend, my iraq friend she was pretty..teehee...

phew.....i feel abit better for sharing my day now!!! i was fucking damn hate her and not going to follow her anymore!!!
Luckily i got my own blog and only to share with my best sista!!!
sista!!! it wasnt my fault!!! i did my best it just she is toooooooooooo "fussy"""

placement!

woots..i still got 7 more days to go!!! then after that..i am free...extremely free!!!
i was following a good nurse which i like the most in flinders private!
she is from south korean... i like the way she speaks! as in english..very fluent..and slow..i can understand her!
i love to work with her!
she explain and i asked a lots of questions ..and she can explain to me!
this is good!
we have a good job today!
it was nice... we worked together! give antibiotics through IV! and stuff!
it was fun!
anyways, its time to sleep gonna wake up early tomorrow to buy lunch and go to library to send in my evidence assignment!
woots!
a lots thank you to my friend, malcom! he is sooo damn nice..he always like to spare some time to help me to check my assignment!