Unhappy!

i was so damn unhappy today!!! My life today makes me freaking bad!!!
I wouldn't appear to follow the nurse today!!! the China nurse! shit!
Bloody shit!
Today i follow her because she looks good to me by the appearance! but who knows... sigh!
Ok..today i took 2 patient by my own... and she gonna choose one patient with palstic surgery (the porn star) for me and lots of obs gonna be done on her because she has low Hb level and she needs blood transfusion!!! that's 3 units! Ok... she gonna follow and watch how am i going to take the blood pressure..ok..i accept it.. then what the fuck she ask me how are u going to test it the cuff of the blood pressure machine is tight on the patient's arm or not? I was like can i just ask the patient whether she feel tight or not? coz never had a nurse ask me such stupid question.!!! then she say just put 2 fingers underneath the cuff....ok (who can think of that) and somemore not to put the sats finger thingy on the same arm where the cuff is on?!!! then i was like explain to her...the other nurse not complaint of that...and different nurse doing different thing.. so who am i going to follow? what the FUCK!! and that patient has got a "sth like underwear" on..and she, the nurse on flow suppose to wash it down by herself....but she ask me to wash it? damn it....i was like how am i going to wash that? shit..!!!
next...about the bladder scan as well! she told me the way to how to do the bladder scan and i did try on the patient maybe the amount is inaccurate coz this is the first time i did that...i havent got use to it...that's new to me!!! how can i suppose to be so "perfectly""" like u? damn it!!! as well as the tympanic machine...she said i dont know how to use that? damn it.....it just the amchine not working soo suddenly.... and she did try on using the machine...still not working i was like well..not my fault...but she said that i dont know how to do it correctly and teach me in front of everyone! damn it!!! people out there!!!! i gonna shout! i know how to do it, k?
just leave me with the patient...that's enough!
i haven complain about her yet..and she start complaint about me! she...suppose to wear gown and gloves when attend a patient with MRSA! and she didn't...also..i ask her whether do i suppose to wear too..then she say no...u dont have to wear coz i am just watching...this one i accept..but...she has to wear it because she is the one who touching the patient..and she never wear it!!! what the fuck? why she never realise on her mistakes?
another one was!!! when in the lift... she said that i am not a very good nurse and not very satisfy with my work today!!! straight away!! i was smiling (but actually damn it!!!..fuck u) what to do..i am just a student.. ok...everything blame on me! for the sake that i am soo stupid till i ask her to write comment on me!!! how stupid am i?
she also said that i have to have a holistic care to the patient..what the fuck i did!!!! i am the one who put on the hot blanket on the patient....who lift the legs on the bed and who put the cream on..and she did what? NOTHING!!! ok..towards the end of the shift..she ask me what have i learnt today? i say ok..i learnt how to use the bladder scan and how to check whether the cannula is sitting well in the vein or not...and also watch her to put in the cannula in... damn it...then she ask what else? she actually aiming me to say about the blood pressure cuff..damn it...that was just a small thing..why remember till now? and also the tympanic machine ...
phewww!!!!
she did wrote a bad comment on me at last..i swear!!! and she did..anyways, i am not going to pass it to my clinical facilitator i did rip the paper off!!! but now the problem was i scare she photocopy it and show it to my clinical facilitator!!!!! i was sooo scare!!!!!
but i got sth to let my clinical facilitator know about her mistake!!!!!
also, i share my anger with my friend, my iraq friend she was pretty..teehee...

phew.....i feel abit better for sharing my day now!!! i was fucking damn hate her and not going to follow her anymore!!!
Luckily i got my own blog and only to share with my best sista!!!
sista!!! it wasnt my fault!!! i did my best it just she is toooooooooooo "fussy"""