多话不多话？

可能有很多人觉得我很难沟通，因为我很少说话。

我不说话，是因为我不懂要说什么，就那么简单。

我不说话，并不代表我不开 心OR有心事。

也许你们都不知道，我只要跟一群朋友坐在一起，

就算没说话，只是听着你们有说有笑，

就算 我呆呆坐在那儿，我也很开心了。

我讨厌吵闹，不过却喜欢与朋友在一起时的热闹气氛。

请原谅我就是这样一个不会说话的 人。。。

相反的。。要是我有个很认识的朋友，我就会非常的多话。

有可能那朋友也觉得我是很聊得来的。。

陌生人的话。。我就只会听。。却不懂说什么或是回应什么。。

所以想跟我说话，就要先认识我先啊。。

我可是很容易认识朋友的。。

有可能因为我是射手座。。

嘻。。

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Blogger i am here!
aiya...boring day again!
worry about my future coz someone has trigger me just now in the bus..
lolzzz
anyways, i dont have to think too much now!
EAT my noodles first...
and come back here tomorrow
tata

29 May 2010

等等去做工！ 回来时我不想做功课！
今天不想要被功课绑住了，我要看戏！
嘻！

不懂说什么好!

刚刚差一点失火！
因为我忘了关火。。幸好我的朋友叫我要不然家里的alarm会一直响！哈！
刚刚把功课做完了。但不知道我写的对吗。。
可是我还有presentation还没弄！

我今天有点烦！不懂为什么！
突然之间想站停我想现在所做的一切！
我有想过不念了。。因为功课好多。压力很大。做了又有点不对很怕会fail。每次都是差一点点！好危险！
我想过现在马上回家！因为我不想住在没有家人劝在的环境里！（有可能堂姐堂妹都在马来西亚吧）
我也有想过搬家！因为这里住的有点闷！
我有想过不做工。可是我没钱养自己！我也不希望爸妈帮我还这些。因为他们已经帮我还所有的学费了！
我有好多的“想过”
怎么办？
i dont know what to do !
i wanna give up!
GIVE UP EVERYTHING. but I cant!

boring!

一个字！
闷！
我好闷啊。。
功课又坐到一半一半这样！
我今天因该会很累的，因为今天很早起身。去做工然后去学校交作业。
回来吃饭。然后睡了一下。开始做功课了！
不知道为什么我的功课永远都做不完的！每天一定会开我的USB。
做到一半又想睡觉！
又想看戏。
可是又担心做不完。做不好！
很烦啊！！

Airticket..

I have got the airticket back to Malaysia again! But, i am quite dissapointed because i am going back for 30 days ONLY!!! back to adelaide on 21 Feb 2010! sigh!
what to do.. the ticket is cheap! so my mum have to book it!
anyhow, i can always go back! at least once in a year!
woohoo
*I am so greedy coz i cant finish my noodles! **

I am very worry!

I was worry about my shift swaping in the nursing home!
First, i am picking up esther's shift because she is going to melbourne for few days on sunday! And i am working on that day for a short shift actually.. she just ask me to pick up her shift and cancel my short shift! I am so scare that sth will go wrong! I have to explain to the nurses manager about that tomorrow！
Secondly, Ronald is dropping his "c" shift this coming thursday and he ask me to pick up his "c" shift because he is going to do esther's night shift on that day! so, the swaping form done! and i am going to pick the "c" shift!
Thirdly, Tomorrow, i am actually doing the long shift. But the RN called me to ask me to do the morning shift! And i was so blur and i told the RN that i am going to work tomorrow in the afternoon but he say i have no shift! I said," can u please check properly!" if not, i am going to die! He told me that someone cancel my long shift and i didn't know that! I hope there's someone coming tomorrow or else.. I will be blamed!
*SIGH*
*Hope everything going smooth!**
I am very scare something will happen to me!

It's today!

It's today! Friday!

Lots of thing happened on the street while i was waiting for the bus.

First, I went to the bank to cancel my credit card and i found sth! I wish i can catch a picture and post it here but i cant because i have to ask someone's permission! It's all about FINGERS~! What actually happened?
haha.. Let me tell u guys... I saw a Man, who is quite young around 20-26 years old and good looking working in the bank as the receptionist i think (because he is sitting in front of the counter next to the front door). I was asking him whether can he help me to cancel my credit card as i have already got one with me. He say ok and he is going to do it for me and i am just stand there and nth to do! I start to look at him from the head down to the body and his hand!! At first he gave me a good impression and smile to me! OMG! His hand was terribly DIRTY! His is like been painting before.. Still got colours on his fingers! It's damn dirty and how can he work like this.. And black dirt stains in his nails.. OMG... This scares me because it's horrible dirty! yuks!

Secondly, I walked down to China Town to wait for the bus in the bus stop! As usual i like to wait in the bus stop instead of having a car with me. The reasons is that i like to watch peoples walking around and see what happen to them and what are they wearing and i can compare and makes some fun of myself as well.... I can actually smile in me If someone wear ugly.. haha.. That's me! I am not humiliating others..it just make myself funny.. Ok.. I saw a man run off from a girl with a letter! He was very angry seeing the letter and ran towards the "Tong sampah" angrily and throw the letter in it! He was so damn angry (maybe the girl gonna break up with him..i dont know) After that he just grab the girl's shoulder and look at her.. The girls was like wanting to talk on the phone. the man just "kap" the phone and put it in the girl's bag.. last, one kepo old man! He go and stop the scene because he thought the man want to hurt the girl.... The man just stop that after a while they just kept quiet and go on the bus!

Thirdly, the "ah pek' that i mention just now.. I dont know what happen to him! I think he wanted to wait for the free bus that can take him home for free.. He was so stingy and wasn't bring the senior card and the bus driver couldn't let him to get on the bus as long as he pay for the ticket.. But the old man doesn't want and the bus driver close the door and doesn't want to let the old man go on the bus.. How pity was the old man! He just sat in the bus stop and wait for the next "free" bus!

Fourth! I went to the nursing home and finished my job at 7.30pm.. we have a new old woman came into the nursing home and we washed her. She is a double assist and feeding.. The kitchen hand, Mary.. She treat me so nice! I dont know why! Or she pity me? She just like to bring me to the bus stop.. and just now she asked me whether i want to eat bananas or not.. I just say nvm! But she didn't say anything and just peel the banana for me.. I was like..errr... ok..thank..haha..I was soo "mian qiang' to eat because her fingers also dirty..yuks..haha..
I wander why aussies fingers are dirty? lolzzz... I was doing the dirty job with the poo around but my hands and fingers are CLEAN?
lolzzz...

That's the FUN thing today!

Oh ya.. I have got 5 miss call from the nursing home probably the vietnam RN called me for the longer shift.. sorry ya.. because my phone was flat till it off itself... I was charging my phone and didn't bring it with me! thanks anyway.. Glad to see you just now!

relieve a bit!

I felt better today because my friend help me with my assignment! woohoo..thanx a lots!
Today i went to uni's library and try to look up for the student learning centre but no lecturer there.. I was frustrated for waiting so long in the classroom and finally i gave up and go back home!

Mum send me money as i didn't ask for it? lolzz..swt!!
anyways, i gonna save them as fixed deposit !!!

压力！

我今天的心情不是很好！
感觉很压力！
我的功课拿到了。。可是要在交过！我问老师，她说你写的内容是对的。。就因为我的referencing问题！
我觉得有点怪！因为我一直都用一样的方式去写我的功课 （referencing i mean on the other assignment) 可是为什么这次这个老师说写错？反而上次的又对？是不是因为不一样的老师？
觉得很压力！
明天还要去大学问问英文老师！看看我是哪里做错！我觉得我没错！
还好我的朋友美琪， 她愿意帮我改改我的错误！
我的grammar 也有点问题！
完了！
我也不懂怎么改！

好烦啊！！！

18 May 2010

Today is the last week of my Ethic class! yoohoo! I am not going to attend such a boring class! The tutor just talk for 2 hours! lolzz.. grrr...
stuck with words! I can't think of anything to write now! My eyes was so TIRED! But I dont want to sleep at this time! sigh!
*Oh ya, i bought 3 yorgurt! It was cheap!!!**

17 May 1020

I woke up very early in the morning at around 5.30am and i dont have enough sleep because i worked the day before! It was horrible! I work work and work! until 1030pm and finally i can go back home and do my laundry and have a good nap! But florence (my sch mate), she told me that we have to go to flinders uni for the clinical meeting at 5pm..i was shock because no one told me! I called to Flinders nursing office then confirm the venue and stuff then i rush to the uni as i dont want to miss my bus before 3pm! GUESS what happen??

It was just a FOOL!!! The facilitator is not coming at ALL!!!

Then we just drop our name down on a piece of paper for the attendance!
*pissed*

Sunday night (16 May 2010)

I met an auntie in the street late in the night at around 1130pm as i saw her actually the night before and we just never talk to each other when we first met because we don't know each other! She was still pushing the trolley around in the china town picking the boxes. She talked to me as she saw me once again last night! We just had normal chat like i am just back from working and stuff! One thing that i know was she is from china.. lolzzz...

Short movie!

This is happened few days ago as i was working late until 11pm with Gordon (My colleague). We go onto the bus at 11.30pm as the bus came late and it was soo unfortunately! It's my unlucky day and it was my MUM's birthday somemore (15 May 2010)! There is a woman with a baby in the trolley and 2 men sat opposite her (They are her friend i think). One African sat just next to us and there is an isle in between us! Luckily.. Ok.. it was like this... The African man was talking on phone but it was quite normal for us to talk in the public especially in the bus and we have no complaint about that.. He wasn't too loud as we still can accept his voice on the bus! Suddenly the woman turn her head back and ask the African man to lower the voice but the African man was ignored her... The woman was bit angry as he ignored her. Second time, the woman raise her voice and say :"Could you please lower down ur voice and my baby wants to sleep!" Again, the African doesn't want to listen to her. She was EXTREMELY angry! After few minutes, the woman and those men gonna go off from the bus and the woman quickly throw a little piece of cake or sth at the African as for revenge! The African was angry and throw the piece of thingy at the woman! One of those Guys (the 2 guys with the woman) run and hit the African!! The African quickly run to the back of the bus then kick the 2 aussies.. Glass bottle throwing to the aussies and bleeds on his head! The scene was horrible and I quickly raise my bag on my head to avoid the throwing (because it was glass) The African was bleeding too on his nose and mouth! The scene ends as those bloody aussies go off to the bus because the African is much more stronger than them! The African doesn;t want to go off the bus until the bus driver called to the police because it was not his fault and now he is injured! lolzzz... Luckily i am able to run to another bus without seeing the police to be the witness because i am just sitting next to him and saw everything! That's my right!

Terrible day!!!

无言

我发觉到人，不能不吃，尤其是宵夜！！！
因为宵夜可以让你有精神上网还可以解闷！！
牛奶也是一种可以解闷的饮料。。
我怎么了？疯了吗？。。哈。。

2012

I have watched the movie 2012 just now and lots and lots of question come out from my mind.. and maybe it just a movie and i dont have to think so much? my questions were why the movie was like TSUNAMI instead of the real earthquake? What i meant was it suppose to shown the earthquake as well but it's like a big TSUNAMI in the end! And is it only submarine one of the way to save those life?what about any others? such as plane as it's TSUNAMI as it works in the air? maybe plane needs petrol but submarine as well rite? and what happen next? can those ppl stay in the submarine for their whole life? where they can get their food? The food will come to end rite? I am waiting for 2012 the second movie!!! I want more details of that!!! I suppose to mention the about earthquake!!!

Anyways, it's a really nice movie!!! I like such movie!!!
*Today i went to china town and met my secondary sch mate that's yien siaw! She was with her friends..haha... Glad to met her today!!!**

13 May 2010

I woke up at around 12pm and finish the last episode of hong kong's series then prepare to go to work! I went to the city a bit early and gone to coles to grab some groceries! I bought 3 meat cans and 2 bottles of sauce! They are all quite cheap! One can of the meat stuff was $1.57 and it's $3 sth as usual! and 2 bottles of sauce was $5! That's cheap! But i have got more than 5 bottles of sauces. and i wander when can i finish those sauce! lolsss...

Today i witnessed a DEAD body!!! One of my old lady has died at around 6.50pm as i went into her room to give her some drinks. Her skin was yellow and i felt like something is going to happen soon like dying! I call her name to have some drinks and she does not response to me.. I touch her skin adn feel warm but her face was totally yellowish and not RESPONDING! I quickly told my partner i dont want to tell the RN yet because i want to make sure everything of my expected are correct.. My partenr came in with me and i show him that Betty is dead .. He is very sure that she is dead then he went to call the RN ! The RN take the butterfly clip off (For Morphine to reduce pain).. She ask us to change the linen and clean her change her pad as well. Her daughter and son came to have a last visit. Doctor was there.

*Upload the things that i bought today**
*Going to correct my assignemnt and ready for tomorrow*
*Going to have lunch with friend tomorrow**

12 May 2010

This is too COLD!!! It's colder than yesterday!!! Luckily i wore lagging and long sleeve today!!! If not..i gonna die under cold weather!!! Me and mei chee went to pizza hut to have the "WORK"? actually it's a pizza buffet and it worth $15 per person and u can have how many pizza as u like and spagetti with sauce, ice-cream and cakes and mousses as well!!! It's quite worth!!! But i still cant eat that much as my stomach is tooo small!!! ahhha... It's a cold weather today at around less than 10 degrees if i am not wrong! We came back home at around 9pm. My room was freezing cold ! It colder than outside! OMG!!! What am i going to do in winter time? as this is just spring!

I am still WAnDErInG!!!

It's 11 May 2010

Time is getting faster and faster... I have got my permanent salary for a month and my sem 1 almost end in 3 more weeks!!! woohoo!!! BUT exam, assignments and presentation coming soon!!! lolzzz... Kinda hard..but i will try my best!!!
I had a tutorial today and drive me crazy with the ethics lecture! She was angry this morning as she saw one of the students using laptop in the class and she thought that student was playing facebook.. Then she shout out loudly maybe her mood is not too good!!! ahha...
One of my tutorial fwen she is from vietnam . she praise my hair...she say my hair is nice and ask me whether i cut it here or not? I said to her that it's actually from malaysia..ahha.. And maybe i will keep my hair this long or a bit longer and go back end of this year see what will happen next.. I will let that Mr. George to design my hair style again see whether i suit what hair!!! ahha.. first time i love my hair this much!!! ThANX to him!!!
Boring time right now!!! I feel like want to correct my assignment but..i am lazy now..maybe i will do it tomorrow!!!

*Will upload a pic later** keke

chicken corn soup with eggs and rice!!!

Chicken corn soup with eggs and rice!

*peel and slice a brown onion into small pieces**

*cook rice**

*cut the chicken into pieces**

*heat the sauce pan with 2 teaspoon of cooking oil**

*stir fry the brown onion in the oil until it's turn brown**

*put the chicken into the sauce pan and stir fry it**

*pour 2 cups of water in the sauce pan and let it cook **

* put the corn kernel and add an egg if u like **

*It takes around 25 minutes to cook
**

*serve**

9 May 2010 (Mother;s Day)

It's Mother's Day today! Wish every mother in this world are all peace and healthy include my mum as well!! Hope she stop eating meat which makes her high cholesterol!!! Stop please!!! Again, i worked and my shift today was fine ! nothing much to say about that! I am just feeling so TIRED! without any sleep for 2 days (actually got 6 hours sleep lar) haha..but that's not enough for me! I slept after i reach home!!! Guess what.. today i wen to TARGET to see that heels and i didn't buy it at the end because it looks a bit old fashion (but with leopard skin) it just OLD FASHION but i like the heels especially the size and the length of the heels! i like it!!! maybe one day i will buy it..who knows? sigh! i miss it now!!! REALLY!!!

*gonna continue my assignment again, hope i can finish it tonight**
*feeling better now but with red and puffy eyes**

Excited and Tired!

I went to work today and guess who i met? a 冒牌林侑嘉！！！he is so damn handsome with curly hair! I hope the real 林侑嘉 can have a curl hair as well like him and please dont keep fit ler..u are too thin and SKINNY!!! Some other excited things was i have found my old friend. From my memory, her name is Lily and i am not sure whether her surname is "wong" or not.. I find her based on my memory that she have a pair of small eyes and small and thin lips with sharp nose and oval face.. and she is with a curly hair.. She is fair from what in my memory.. I found HER!!! But unfortunately i forgot where we met... i just know her in my memory and i have got such friend.. From my memory she is sick.. she told me that she has got a cancer? Maybe it's just a rumour? and she is still " alive" now? lolz..."choi" I hope i can have a good nice talk with her.. I msg her in fb and she did reply and said that she still remember me! but after i saw her profile (as she lock her profile only i can see her is i add her as friend), i think she is different from my memory... maybe she has change!!! She looks older from my memory!!! but anyways, nice to get her back again!!! woohoo!!! One more thing was... I found a really nice romantic korean song! it is by 2am (the singer?) and the name was "我知道"？ It is really nice and i am going to put this songs in my blog!!! woohoo...
My work today was extremely TIRING!!! I have work with an agency who is soo sloww working and doesn't have any initiative to work" what a shame on her! she wants me to ask her to do this and that! However, we can still manage to finish on time! Tomorrow gonna work with gordon!!! see wat's going with the SAME section!!! grrrr...

* Tired**
*gonna take shower and continue my NCP**
*wake up at around 12pm *

*i gonna buy a new pair of heels for myself it's leapard skin** woohoo..i founf it SEXY**

6/5/2010

It's thursday today. The weather today is chilly and luckily no rain in the morning. I went to work for short shift and sth happen.. We have got 3 persons to work in a section and usually we only need 2 the most for a section but today we have got 3 person and the left out one was ME!!! I was like grrrr...why i pick up this shift as we have got 2 carers already! Actually i have got an assessment which is organised well by the nurse manager who want to assess me and i think i am so dump this morning as i was too nervous. The assessor come to me and i am very sure that she is going to assess me after she called my name! She ask me who am i going to do after and she is going to assess me! I was shock! and My mind keep saying NO, PLEASE and i haven't prepare yet and it was so sudden! Anyways, i have to undergoes those assessment sooner or later i have to sit for the assessment also! ok.. I am going to do a double assist old man which he is a shower today and first i am going to look for the care plan to make sure that i am doing the right thing! I have my partner to help me! He is so funny.. He is nervous than me and keep do my things. The assessor said that she is just going to assess me and he just need to help me to trasfer. Something goes wrong was we use the full sling to transfer the man to the shower chair! and i know I AM SO WRONG and i thought i will be told off after this but NOT at all because the assessor doesn't know how to use the lifter thingy. My partner trying to look for another lifter as the bloody lifter in the room was flat and the assessor pick that up on me. She say u should pull the broken lifter away to save the time! I was like who is going to look for the old man? can i just leave him on the bed or something? Is this my FAULT? As usual i shaved, brushed his teeth, shower and dry in improper way (as the old man's left hand cant even move and very very damn stiff) The assessor said that i have to goes right under his broken arm to dry it! make sure it's dry as well as the other error was.. i did't pull the fold of the penis (it's a nursing care) and wash the penis properly it was because i am run out of time! Another errors were the lifter thingy as we cannot swing the old man around to put him on the bed as it's under safety as well as she told me that i have to put every pillows on the bed and dont leave them on the chair but my rational was the quilt is not enough to cover the pillow and i am run out of time! The heater thingy as well due to this cold weather! I really FORGOT and dont even remember about that!!!Time management killed me as well because i finished him within an hours maybe she start it when i go to look for the care plan? that's NOT FAIR!!!
Anyways, some of my good thing was my HANDWASHING! She said my handwashing was very good and hygiene care such as dry between toes and fingers, good initiative, infection control, correct bed making, and such.. It seems the good thing is much lesser than the bad thing! arhh..i gonna improve next time! it's too sudden!!!Anyways, it's OVER!!!
I went to change my nighties that i bought it last week which was too big for me! Luckily the cashier allow me to change to smaller size! I came back and bought 3 stupid expensive chicken!!! as i thought they are less than $10 which they are actually $10 per kilos!!! I paid about $26 for those bloody chicken! Anyways, i have cooked one of the chicken with the rice ans this time my cooking taste nice but i cant finish it and i left it for tomorrow! Back from nap and start with my fish aquarium and essays!!!

*Going to stay up until 3am **
*update blog tomorrow as well if i have time***
*thinking of what to do with my unfreeze chicken and i have no time to cook for the following day because i am working!!**
*Mum ask me to check the airtickets which costs around $1000**
*Hope i can start or wrote sth for my essays tonight**

5 May 2010

This is my first piece of writing in this month!!! it's May and time pass very quick like parachute! Again, i had my class this morning and my last class for this week and i will be free from tomorrow. I have a very short shift tomorrow in the morning so before i get into my nice warm bed tonight, i decide to write something in here! My class today was quite nice and short. I have finished my class out of my expected because i get out from the class early today! yeah! i have got out like 30 minutes early for my psycho class and so my nursing 3 class! My psycho tutor has just got our assignments paper and i hope she will correct it quickly and pass all the students! I really and sincerely hope that! Oh Lord Jesus! I came a back home by bus and it took really long time for me to just sitting in the bus and was sooo tired of IT! I hate bus now! I felt bit frustrated with it and something usual happen again! It was my lappy! It stops working again just now! Luckily i have got my housemate to save it back! But i dont know whether how long does it last for! I hope it can last for a very long time or else i gonna be angry without my lappy! I cannot do my assignment without it! My lappy finally fixed and i quickly correct my assignments before it shut down ...grrr... Online as well to look for some info on the asisgnment!

Gonna sleep very soon!
*I will update my blog tomorrow again**
* Gonna work tomorrow only for a short shift**
*tata*